To be determined

I took my first ever placement exam for college yesterday. I was so nervous beforehand. I really thought I was going to throw up. It was surprisingly not that bad. I did really well on reading and writing and not so well on math. Listen though, my expectations of my math grade were not high going into this. When you start putting letters into math, my brain explodes.  11 years ago, the thought of going to college didn't even occur to me. The last year of High school, my father was very sick. He did end up making it to my high school graduation, then I went to visit him in Illinois  (where he and most of my family reside) that September. By November, he was gone. At that point, all I wanted to do was get away. And so I did. I met my ex husband and within 2 weeks we were off to Texas. Probably not the smartest decision I've ever made. It's something I would definitely never want either of my kids to do. But, I was in love. And I was broken. And I wanted love to fix my broken...

I have no idea what I want to do with my life. For the past 7 years my focus has been on being a mother. And now, at almost 30 years old, it's time to start thinking about myself. It's something I am not very good at. I want more for my kids. I want more for me. So in January, 11 1/2 years after graduating from High School, I will be starting college. I can't believe I am actually doing it.  I am nervous. I am excited. I am really happy. I am terrified. Mostly terrified that it will take me 10 years to earn my Bachelor's Degree. I have to figure out a way around that. I want this to work. But I also will not sacrifice time with my kids. People say, "but you are showing them a good example. That's what they will remember." That's fine and dandy. I get that. But I highly doubt that my good example is what my kids will remember fondly about me if I were to kick the bucket 2 years from now. For me, there needs to be a balance. Otherwise this cannot work f...

It has been nearly a year since I've last blogged. But I've decided I need to start up again. Hopefully I can stay on track. Our life right now is filled with busy activities. School, homework, housework,etc. Now that both kids are in elementary school, we don't have a spare minute during the week. It is tiresome and exciting all at once. Here is a twist for you. . . I start school in January. I don't know what I was thinking. For me to even get a general associates degree, with the time I am able to put into it, it'll probably take me 5 years. But, I am doing it anyways. School will now be a permanent fixture in my life, whether I like it or not. Some days I like it, others not (and I haven't even started yet). Let's not even talk about love. I thought I was too busy to find it before... ha! Single:5 years and counting. Hey, that could be TLC show , right?! Haha. Truth is, I'm not too worried about it. These are the best years of...