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Never too late

I took my first ever placement exam for college yesterday. I was so nervous beforehand. I really thought I was going to throw up. It was surprisingly not that bad. I did really well on reading and writing and not so well on math. Listen though, my expectations of my math grade were not high going into this. When you start putting letters into math, my brain explodes. 

11 years ago, the thought of going to college didn't even occur to me. The last year of High school, my father was very sick. He did end up making it to my high school graduation, then I went to visit him in Illinois  (where he and most of my family reside) that September. By November, he was gone. At that point, all I wanted to do was get away. And so I did. I met my ex husband and within 2 weeks we were off to Texas. Probably not the smartest decision I've ever made. It's something I would definitely never want either of my kids to do. But, I was in love. And I was broken. And I wanted love to fix my broken heart.

It never did. In fact, I was told after our split that he only asked me to come because I had money (from my dad's life insurance policy); that the love wasn't real.   Whether or not it was real for him, it was for me. But I would not be who I am today if I was still with my ex husband. We are both happier now than before. So when I explain to my kids why mommy took so long to go to college, I tell them if I had never gone, I would not have the two very best things in my life! And for that I am grateful. And I can certainly make up for lost time.

And something I know now: I am worthy of more. I am worthy of greatness. I deserve it. And I'm going to work so hard for it. I want my kids to see that they can do ANYTHING and that it's never too late to do something wonderful with your life.

Wish me luck.

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