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The girl behind the blog.

Getting to know me.

My name is Nicole Marie Patterson. My maiden name is Ryman. I am 27 years old and was born in Fallbrook California. I live in florida now as my step dad was stationed here. I have a brother named John.  He is 30. My father passed away when I was 18 years old due to brain cancer.

My marital status is divorced. But I just like to call myself single. I never understood why people wanted to label themselves with something that can be seen as so negative.

My children are my whole world. I have a daughter, Autumn, who was born on 12-08-08 and is 5 years old. She will start kindergarten this year. She is funny,  smart, creative, and beautiful.  Lucas was born on 12-16-09. He is 4 years old and is the sweetest little boy. He is very smart, silly, giggly, handsome, and loveable. He has the best smile. They are everything to me. ♥

I am a deep, free-thinking, emotional, heart-on-my-sleeve individual. I overthink. I am analytical. I am impulsive. I am also reserved and very much an introvert to those who do not know me. It takes a while for me to become comfortable around others.

I am disconnected. I have been through a lot in the last 4-5 years. And I have found that through it all, I let myself get to a place of isolation and mistrust in others. Though,  I also trust way too easily. I have learned to 'turn it off.' When someone hurts me, I have created a barrier to allow myself to feel less pain. I find that rather disturbing and its something I am working on. I am not that girl. Refer to the above fact. It's funny the defense mechanisms we allow our heart and minds to create.

Creativity. I love to be creative. I wish I was better at it. But I do love it.

Music is so important to me. I love to sing. I love to listen to music that reflects my thoughts and mood at the current time.  It's a great therapy for me. :)

I want to take a cooking class. I love to cook. But I would love to learn the right ways to cook and how to utilize ingredients better. I think it would be so fun. :)

I do not have a desire to go to college. I just don't.  I don't like school. Now I do intend to eventually going back. But that is simply to provide a better life for my kids through earning a degree. I have always wanted to simply do things I love and be a wife and a mom.  So far, I have the mom thing down. ♥

I have been single for 3 1/2 years. If we are telling the truth though, my marriage was over at least 6 months before the separation, right after our youngest child was born. I am a single mom doing rhe very best I can for my babies. And in 2014, I so hope I allow myself to be open enough to let love in. I am ready for love again, and hope that it finds me.

I am a serious person. Can you tell? Haha. I hope to lighten up and havr more fun! Woohoooooooo! 

So there are some facts about me.

Thanks for stopping by.

♥Nikki

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