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Close my eyes

I was a wayward child
With the weight of the world
That I held deep inside
Life was a winding road
And I learned many things
Little ones shouldn't know

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though times roll by
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up, a little too soon

Funny how one can learn
To grow numb to the madness
And block it away
I left the worst unsaid
Let it all dissipate
And I try to forget

As I close my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though time rolled by
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up, a little too soon

Nearing the edge, oblivious I almost
Fell right over, a part of me
Will never be quite able
To feel stable
That woman-child flailing inside
Was on the verge of fading
Thankfully I woke up in time

Guardian angel I sail away
On an ocean with you by my side
Orange clouds roll by
They burn into your image
And you're still alive
You're always alive

As I close my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raise my head to the sky
And though time rolled by
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up, a little too soon


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