A Letter To My Daughter On Her 9th Birthday

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My Dear Autumn,

Today, you are 9! You were born on December 8, 2008. You were 5 lbs, 11 oz and were 19 inches long. As I look at you today, I am reminded that life is short. You stand before me a budding young woman. I don’t know that I will ever be able to accurately describe to you what it’s like to love you. I fall short of being a perfect mother. I make mistakes. And all the while, you give me grace. Your heart is pure. You are just like me, Autumn. Knowing what I know, and how this life has shaped me into who I am, and the struggles I had along the way — it is my mission to give you every tool you need to take all the qualities the world will look at as weak, and help you to turn them into a driving force of love and positivity. You will impact so many with your passion and creativity. I want to thank you. You turned me into a mother. You gave me life. You continue, daily, to challenge me in ways I never knew you would. This life is not easy, sweetie plum. But I promise you, this life is worth it. Your value is abundant to so many. Today marks your last birthday in the single digits, and I just wish time would slow down and allow me more time with you. Always use your heart. It’s a gift to feel so deeply. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

My world.

My heart.

My soul.

My beautiful child.

Love, love.

♥️ Mommy

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